After an already emotionally fraught morning, I was trying to distract myself before writing Slice Harvester and I went over to Jigsaw Underground to see if Tobi had written anything new since I last checked it out. I ended up spending the past hour watching footage and reading accounts from Friday's protests in Oakland over the unbelievably lax Mehserle verdict and crying uncontrollably. Sorry to get so real with y'all, but fuck the world, okay? I don't have to tell Slice Harvester readers who Mehserle and Grant are, right? You are informed enough to know that in the early morning hours of New Year's Day 2009, Johannes Mehserle, a BART cop, executed a 22-year-old man on the platform of the Fruitvale BART station. Well maybe you don't pay enough attention to know that on Friday Mehserle was sentenced to two years for shooting another human being point blank in the back of the head. Two years.
I mean, like, reviewing pizza places is fun, and I get the notion that like, even in this sick fucking society we have to just trudge on and find transcendent moments and happiness where we can, as long as it's not at the expense of anyone else, but what is the fucking point? We live in a horrifying world that is getting worse every day. Reading about this, watching these videos, I feel so powerless. And after the hour I've just spent sobbing, I feel like an empty husk. It is probably unseemly to talk about this stuff publicly, but fuck that! Everybody should be talking about it all the time. I don't have any answers, I don't know how to proceed, but I know that being silent isn't cutting it. I know that pretending like it doesn't affect me is not making my life any better, and it's not making your life any worse to know that I am affected by this stuff.
I just don't feel like I can sit here and be all, "Tony's House of Pizza kind of sucks, the pizza tastes horrible, but it has a cool awning." Or whatever I'm going to say when I finally write my next review later today or tomorrow. You can bet if I was writing this blog in 2008 when they sentenced the three pigs who shot Sean Bell to NOTHING, I wouldn't have written a pizza review that day.
Fuck this. Ugh.